I can't believe it's been two years since I've posted. A lot has happened to me in the last couple of years. Things that make me question who I am as a person and where I belong in this life. Is this where I'm truly supposed to be? Is this what I'm truly supposed to be doing? As I travel on my path, and cross the paths of others I wonder about the grand master plan of it all. Will what I'm doing matter in a few years to anyone but me? Will I make a difference to someone? I turn 40 next year and I don't know if it's mid life crisis or what, (I hate that term) but in the last year I have really started to look at my choices and wonder about the time I have spent, versus the time I have left to spend. We don't know how many days are given. We don't know how long we get. I crochet and Facebook and work and spend time with my friends and work and I just can't help but wonder is this all there is? Is this the master plan for me? And am I an ungrateful brat for not being content with what I have been given? I have it all. Loving husband healthy kids, a job that pays the bills, a roof over my head and food on the table. But I can't push aside this overwhelming feeling of discontent. And I don't know how to fix it. Thought for a long time maybe it was hormones or something. I cry regularly because I can't shake this feeling. And I'm not sure what I want or need to make me feel more fulfilled when I have everything I need.
So in the tradition of the "I've been BOO'd" game, (info here
if you've never heard of it), I wanted to create an office version of
the "I've been HO HO HO'd" game. Our office was taken in by the ghosties
before Halloween to BOO each other with anonymous treats, and usually at
Christmas time we have a secret pal where everyone draws names and then
you leave treats or do random nice things for your secret pal until the
reveal day, when everyone goes for lunch and trades one last larger
gift with their secret pal. I never participate in this for two reasons,
first of all I'm usually too busy and don't want to put my name in if I
can't put the time and effort in to do it properly and two, I've often
seen people put their name in, get awesome gifts from their secret pal
and yet do nothing for the person whose name they have drawn. That being
said, this year our office is slacking and hasn't drawn names for the
secret pal, so I've decided to spread some Christmas cheer around and
couldn't find a "I've been HO HO HO'd sign, so made this one up. The
Santa Element is from Sahlin Studio's collab kit with Jenn Barrette Kitschy Christmas.
I'm hoping it gets everyone in the Christmas spirit of giving. Merry Christmas everyone!